Roughly four years ago there was something that I would have given everything I had for. Today I found out that all I have to do is pick up the phone and it's pretty much mine. The twisted part of it all is that I really don't want it now.
I feel like I'm screwing the universe on this one. I prayed and prayed and wanted and longed for this. It was on my mind constantly. Now that it can be mine... now that it is easily attainable... well as I said, I don't want it.