mortality cartographer (beeooll) wrote,
mortality cartographer


I talk to myself... and yes, sometimes I answer. Some people think that is indicative of insanity... I think I owe it to myself because I respect me.

If you listen, it's amazing what you can hear.

Since I discovered my third eye, I mean, when I believe I truly discovered it, I keep wondering what practical use it actually has. You know, like in every day life.

According to all of the books I've read... they always portray a gigantic purpose to it... it's always an overblown hype surrounded by undefined and non quantifiable bullshit.

I know that the answer to the question of purpose has to do with at one or both of the following:

1. I have yet to completely gain an understanding of it... this is rather likely.
2. The fact that it's actually a natural part of us, awakening it, the change is subtle enough that it's not noticeable, yet profound enough that it makes all of our being different. Thereby, we can't notice immediate impact; we may indeed be able to feel the sensations but the change is an exponentially increasing separation from what would be.

I have no idea what to call my experience as putting a label on it would be lame. In no way do I imply that I was elevated by any means but I can't help but look over the months between that week and see things fundamentally different in the fiber of my being.

This is going to sound really odd but I think this sums it completely up... I was flying around IMDB and I happened onto this quote,

"When I was a kid, I thought I was the strongest man in the world. Then, the fastest runner and then the smartest person in the world. One by one my delusions got shut down. Now I just see myself as the lamest guy in the world."

There's certainly more depth to that quote than what is immediately visible and at the same time it completely makes sense on all levels... or at least I can certainly relate to it.

People do not need saving... if they payed enough attention, they could do it themselves. The world doesn't need saving either... it's been around before us... it will be around after.

The truth is we are tiny.

Our responsibility to ourselves is to be as honest as possible to, well, ourselves. We, at least those that care about the broader perspective, should make an attempt in our actions to do things that promote the further development of our species.

The bottom line is that we are here for a reason... and sometimes even reasons are actually mistakes or coincidences. The only point to our little slice of time is to do what we can, however small or large it may be in any of this, to help us, knowingly or otherwise, become what we may eventually be.

And all of this sounds
than it actually is.
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