I've discovered that when you have nothing, you have nothing to loose, and things take on an entirely different perspective when you still dare to want and to believe. Oddly, when you have enough at the moment, you also have nothing to loose and it's easier not to freak out and get nervous.
It makes you wonder if you really ever have anything to loose.
Things are starting to click. They always do this time of year. In fact just the other day I couldn't help but consider a chain of occurrences and thoughts, the way they came together, to be possibly the beginning of the spring cycle of thinking it and then living it. Since I'm not holding on for dear life just to grab another breath, I'm not starting from scratch again, if it does happen... oh man. I won't speculate but I can certainly visualize it and that always is the first step toward change.